9 Nov 2009

He doesn't love me anymore!


There are also phases which I have gone through when I experience Swami Vishwananda as very strict. His firmness makes me think that he doesn’t love me anymore, or that he loves everyone else much more. These, I have found, are always the times of developing, realising and learning. Swami puts us through these trials and tribulations so that we may work through our individual obstacles which hold us back from God.
Eventually I realised that Swami had been working on an old pain I had to work through. There was a side of my ego he had to make me feel intensely, before I could really let go of it. In these situations the quickest way to get through it is to surrender the pain and just let it go without questioning it, without thinking: "Err, what’s wrong with him today? What have I done to make him treat me this way?"
Sumitra, CH

If he looks at you like this, it means: "stop taking pictures" ... and you will ... for several days or even weeks!